Sitting Across From You

I'm sitting here
across from you
staring at the floor
I note every little speck of dust
blowing through my life
...
I know your blue eyes are on me
but I can't look back
I stare at my shoelaces
turned gray from the dirt in my life
...
I know how you feel
but I don't know if I can return your feelings
I look at the goosebumps rising on my arms
I shiver
but not on the outside
my heart is scared and cold
...
I know you want me to simply trust you
but I am afraid
that if I make this leap of faith
you won't be there to catch me
and I will break my heart open
again
...
You slowly make your way over
across the gap
between you and me
sliding next to me
your arm around my shoulder
...
I want to let you stay
but my heart is so fragile
will you be gentle?
...
The warmth from your body
surrounds me
scaring my goosebumps away
I'm warm on the outside
but my heart is still shivering
will you be able to reach it?
...
You whisper “I love you”
but do you really mean it?
I'm just so confused
I want to believe your words
but how can I be sure?
...
If I trust you with my heart
will you be gentle?