I Thought I Didn't Want The Light

The light warms me
but I believe warmth makes you weak
the light keeps me safe
but in my arrogance I want to face danger
the light makes me beautiful
but I believe beauty is a mask for ugliness
I don't want the light
I push it away
the light resists
know things I won't comprehend
I push harder
the light fades
triumphantly I believe I am free
darkness envelopes me
I cannot see
I feel a horror creeping towards me
it means me harm
I am fearful
but my mind will not let me call the light
It's cold
I want the warmth
but pride restrains me
tears leave wet streaks down my ugly face
my body bends to a weight I know I cannot bear
I want the light
an everlasting terror tries to consume me
in despair I push it back
my heart contorts to the image of one who died to save me
I want the light
but again my pride refuses to let me call out
I could not comprehend the love
my body slowly falls to the ground
pain shoots through my soul
my pride chokes me
I cannot bear it
screams resound around me
I believe nobody hears
my body gives way to despair and darkness
tears leave streaks down my ugly face
I want love
my heart bursts through the chains of pride
“Please!”
I scream
“I need You!”
a sudden blinding light
pushes back the darkness
bathing my body in warmth
love flows through me
I close my eyes
knowing I am safe
comprehending the awesome power of the light
I float amongst the stars
bathed in an everlasting light