Waking Nightmare

Can anybody hear me?
I open my mouth to scream
yet my throat closes

Liquid rivers run down my cheeks
reminding me of the tears you once cried
and what we were

Oh can you understand what I'm saying?
because I know I can't
can anyone save me?

Am I to be lost forever in this silent horror?
even though I try
I know my smile is gone

I'm just so tired of pretending
I wish someone would break
these chains of pain and regret

The sun turns blood red
as icy fingers creep up my spine
please give me something to hold onto

For I'm drifting away
I feel a darkness deep in me
why do I feel such utter despair?

I used to believe
but now doubt consumes me
never ending night

My eyes slowly close
my chains are so heavy
pulling me ever closer to the cold ground

I just want to fall away
from this haunting past
that threatens to stay forever etched in my mind

From A Distance

I see you from a distance
your smile seems to light up my grey world
as you turn your eyes towards me
my heart leaps
but you see right through me
...
My dreams take you apart like a puzzle
and then put you back together
running fingers over smooth skin
memorizing every piece of you
until sleep flees from my eyes
...
I see you from a distance
I'm drowning in your blue eyes
as you turn towards me
I reach out my hand
but you don't understand
...
I go through my day
thinking of how it would be if I was your girl
how we would hold hands
hold each other close
and love like it was forever
...
I see you from a distance
I'm tired of this void that separates us
will my love be enough to reach you?
All I need is for you to open your arms
so I can run into them