I'm Just So Tired..

Leaves drift across the sidewalk
clouds gather
the wind whips my hair into my eyes
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Flowers slowly fading
dreams slowly dying
smiles slowly hiding
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Trudging alone
my eyes aching from tears
my heart pounding a dull rhythm
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I'm just so tired
thanks for acting like you cared

On the Brink

Why does life always seem to screw me over?
Why do I always seem to make a mess of everything?
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I'm on the brink
no where to go
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flames lick at my soul
fog clouds my mind
ice freezes my heart
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two seconds away from pulling the trigger
then you showed up
took my hand
and showed me what it was like to be loved
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wrapping your arms around me
you saved me
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from the brink
of hopelessness and despair
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you loved me

I Need

I need your eyes
for I need you to gaze into mine
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I need your hands
for I need you to hold onto mine
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I need your strength
for I can't do this on my own
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I need your passion
for I can't make it over this rise alone
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I need your warmth
for I'm so cold inside
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I need your wisdom
for I'm so confused
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I need your love
for I need to be saved from myself

Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder
gazing up at the endless expansion of cold stars
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Questions surge through my mind
so many that it is impossible to pick one
to find an answer
to explain this twisted web
I always seem to weave
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My heart is so confused
I feel like a hypocrite
loving one then another
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Sometimes I wonder
gazing into a burning inferno of fire
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So many doubts rush through my mind
overwhelming my soul
entwining me
in this twisted web
I have woven
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I just want to break away
I just need someone to understand
I just want to rip this mask off
I just want someone to love me

I Was Never Yours

I still remember your smile
and yes I must admit we had some good times
filled with laughter and quiet whispers
but don't you see?
Those good times were just a season
waiting to move onto the next
a space of time
a flicker of flame between two souls
but that space is gone
and the flicker has been snuffed out
I'm in love with another
he has captured my love
I've given him what I said I gave you
but don't you see?
I lied
I never felt that way about you
yes I remember the good times
a faint memory on the horizon of my mind
and that's all you are to me
a faint memory on the horizon of my mind
I was never yours so please
just let me forget

Summer Love

Summer scents waft through the air
delicate butterflies
flutter amongst lazy daffodils
a bubbling brook
tumbles and cascades over slippery stones
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a weeping willow gently caresses the mossy banks
and all of this seems to be just for
you and me
eyes looking
searching into the other's inner heart
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like gauze love wraps around us
making us indifferent to the world in which we reside
your arms hold me safe
as our lips male love together
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sleepy and light-headed
we bask in each other's love

The Battle For My Soul

Tears drip onto grass
laden with dew
my heart is heavy with unshed doubts
who am I?
Who will I become?
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Cold lips cry out to an unseen Spirit
blue eyes search for a meaning
a light to guide me through my terror
fingers clutch at air
my mind plays tricks on my soul
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A Spirit is adrift in my mind
whispering encouraging words
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Soft dreams calming my heart
scarring away the horror
evil lurks in the depths of my soul
then disintegrates as the Spirit comes in
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A mask covers me
but when it is slipped off
how do I know the face beneath is truly me?
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Where can I go to find the truth?
Oh won't someone tell me?
Terror creeps into my mind
waging war with the Spirit
unspeakable horror and brilliant light
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My mind is twisted in a thousand directions
pain unimaginable shooting through my body
falling to the ground
I scream in agony
clutching my head my eyes roll back
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Then it is over
a peace drenches me
slowly I open my eyes
my lips form a smile
as I realize
the Spirit was who I had been looking for all along
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I was saved