I Live Out of Habit

Promises float through my mind in confusing circular patterns
Holding my hand, your eyes gave hope for the future
But this is such a close call as my lies graze your heart
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Sweet nothings pour from my lips in response to your love
You gave your heart to me on a silver platter
It now burns and chars in the fire pouring from my soul
Every time I see you, I’ve sewn my lips to smile 
For with you, I’m miserable at best and can you not see?
I’m corrupt, for this reason I am cursed to never love
Give up while you still can, lest I scar you permanently
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I am not who I say I am, so heed my dire warning
I promised to be your candle on the water
I promised my love for you would always burn
But your kiss is stuck on the tip of my tongue
It tastes of death, and for this reason, you must flee
My heart is wrapped in a fairy tale too far for you to find
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Beaten and bruised your emotions lie, yet, you don’t seem to realize
Everyone leaves and no one sleeps when I am awake
For fate has been set in motion, I am forsaken
This curse is mine to bear, now heed my warning
And escape the poisoned lips while you still can

I'm Breaking Now

Blood-shot eyes see through forsaken lies
When you promised me the world, my heart melted
Yet, here we are, our lips pressed together
And my mind is far away from everything you are
My love bleeds from the pain your words have spread
Shards of glass press ever deeper into my skin
Over and over I lie to myself and you, pretending always
But I cannot deny my emotions are barren

I cannot bring myself to share in the warm emotion you feel
The memories we have shared are frozen in laughter
But my mind can only seem to recall the vague hurt in your eyes
No matter how hard I try, my heart remains cold and frozen

I cannot continue to lie to myself and to you
I’m outside your picture frame and the glass is breaking now