Is It Too Late?

The sun peeks through the closed blinds
turning over I watch you sleep
slowly drawing in a breath
a tear crawls down my cheek
when I remember what I've done
is it too late to say I'm sorry?
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I bury my face in the soft pillow
my heart beats faster
at the thought of what I have done
my fingertips begin to shake
all I want to do is crawl back under the covers
and forget what I have done
is it too late to say I'm sorry?
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Slowly pulling on my clothes
I wish I could find the rewind button for my life
I never meant for this too happen
I don't have an excuse
pain cuts through my head like a knife
tears continue to crawl down my pale face
is it too late to say I'm sorry?
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Everyone makes mistakes
I'm not denying that I'm human
wishing I could be something I'm not
won't change this life
but these hidden scars will never fade
and my life will never be the same
it's too late

Freedom of Expression.

I know their looking at me
I can feel their judgmental glances watching me
as I keep a steady pace
can't let them see the fear in my eyes
I'm going at this alone
I refuse to let them crush my hopes and dreams
block my ears don't listen to the whispers filled with doubt
I'm trusting in my courage
I know I can do this on my own
can't let piercing eyes and cruel thoughts get to me
I know I stand out
I know I'm not like everyone else
but that's okay
I refuse to conform
you may scoff now
but when the world comes to an end
I'll be the one surviving
so I'll bear this burden alone for now
ignoring the piercing eyes and cruel thoughts
whispers of hate in one ear and out the other
I know you're looking at me
and wishing it was you