A cool breeze
ruffles my umber hair
I dangle my feet over the embankment
into the quiet pool
little fishes
tickling the bottoms of my feet
golden rays
reflecting off of the still water
and shining into my squinting eyes
lifting my arms in the air
I drop backwards and lie on my back
I close my eyes
and wonder at the majesty
of creation and the One who established it
twining the grass around my fingers
plucking a daisy here and there
I create my own little crown
setting it on top of my head
I turn to look at my reflection
in the calm water
wondering at the majesty
of human beings and the One who formed them
twirling a twig in the water
amongst the little fishes
creating small currents of mine own
I smile in perfect happiness
and contentment
sensing the sun's heat upon my back
I rise to my feet
and wander along the embankment
to lay beneath a weeping willow
the shade stretching over my head
and I wonder at the majesty
of creation and the One who established it
slowly
gradually
my eyes flutter closed
and I find myself in a different land
I'm standing a top a cliff
I hear the pounding of waves
I feel the wind whipping around me
I taste the salt spray on my tongue
I smell the wetness of invisible rain drops in the air
I see...nothing
blackness
utterly consumes me
fear starts to chew at my mind
my eyes strain for something
anything to focus on
but there is only emptiness
slowly the sound of the breaking waves abates
the wind dies and my hair settles
the taste of salt leaves my mouth
I smell nothing
just blackness fills my nose and mouth
a thick suffocating nonexistence
I gasp
my lungs burn I need air
I'm not getting enough
my knees bend and I slam into hard gravel
my arms cover my ears
trying to block out the sound of emptiness
I feel pain
but from what I don't know
trickles of blood start to run down my face and my arms
I scream
my mind gone wild with terror
something is out there
watching me
waiting
it wants to destroy me
the gravel bites into my knees
I slam my fist into the hard and torturing rock
my knuckles breaking open
blood spills onto black earth
mixing together in painful swirls
I scream again
no!
I will not submit to the terror that grips me
I raise my fist in defiance
and stagger to my feet
I sense eyes on me
millions of eyes
flickering with blood lust
my defiance is immediately subdued
and again I slam into the unyielding blackness
my spirit vanquished
I lie bleeding
a small cry escapes my lips
tears mix with grime and blood
the eyes are closer now
still staring
still waiting
still flickering with blood lust
they can smell it on me
they can smell my fear
my defeat
slowly I slip into a grateful stupor
my mind overrun with terror accepts the blackness
I feel it leaking out of me
blackness trickles out of my eyes
nose
and mouth
along with blood
and water
but as I start to fade
something tickles the back of my mind
a question
a challenge
a whisper
Why is it that you worship Me so easily when things are going well?
Apart from Me you can do nothing
but with Me you can do anything
Call on me and you shall be rescued
get up
and embrace your faith
get up!
GET UP!
I jerk back from my subconsciousness
before the pain can get to me
I rise
pain flares through my body
I can't do it on my own
but through Him I can do anything
terror rips through me
I gasp
choking
I can't do it
I am going to die
no!
I believe!
I need You!
I BELIEVE!
I stand there gasping
but nothing happens
doubt begins to work at my mind
have You abandoned me?
No
I will not give up on my faith
no matter what happens
I stare into the darkness
my mind threatens to succumb
but I beat back the terror and doubt and pain
I search
for the promised light
slowly
I notice a pin point of light in the distance
hovering on the horizon
I stretch out my fingers towards it
but I cannot reach it
I reach with all my strength with all my power
the millions of eyes mock
they torture and laugh
I cry out with hopelessness
why have You teased me with this bit of hope?
Trust Me
I can't
I will fall
and my body dashed amongst the rocks
Trust Me
I can't!
Trust Me
I cry out in desperation
tears leaking from my eyes
I look towards the small light
it is still there
unwavering
Trust Me
with a wrenching sob I leap off of my cliff
I'm falling into blackness
I hear cackling
I sense defeat
and then I'm falling into light
a blinding hot searing light
I scream as all doubt is burned from my mind
I'm floating amongst points of light
Whenever you need Me I am there
Call on Me and I shall rescue
Trust Me
I trust You
I believe with all my heart
my eyes flutter open
was it all a figment of my imagination?
My eyes glance around
the weeping willow leans over me
I hear a bluebird singing
a soft breeze ruffles my hair
the sun's golden rays play with the water
casting reflections on my face
I look at my legs and arms
all tracks of pain erased
I brush my face with my fingertips
no injuries
did it really happen or was it just a dream?
Then quietly a whisper
drifts on the breeze
Trust Me
and I knew that it had truly happened
whether in my mind or in life
it didn't matter
I knew He would be with me forever
so under the weeping willow
beside the quiet pool
reflecting the sun's rays
I gave up a little prayer
of thanksgiving to the One who protects
ruffles my umber hair
I dangle my feet over the embankment
into the quiet pool
little fishes
tickling the bottoms of my feet
golden rays
reflecting off of the still water
and shining into my squinting eyes
lifting my arms in the air
I drop backwards and lie on my back
I close my eyes
and wonder at the majesty
of creation and the One who established it
twining the grass around my fingers
plucking a daisy here and there
I create my own little crown
setting it on top of my head
I turn to look at my reflection
in the calm water
wondering at the majesty
of human beings and the One who formed them
twirling a twig in the water
amongst the little fishes
creating small currents of mine own
I smile in perfect happiness
and contentment
sensing the sun's heat upon my back
I rise to my feet
and wander along the embankment
to lay beneath a weeping willow
the shade stretching over my head
and I wonder at the majesty
of creation and the One who established it
slowly
gradually
my eyes flutter closed
and I find myself in a different land
I'm standing a top a cliff
I hear the pounding of waves
I feel the wind whipping around me
I taste the salt spray on my tongue
I smell the wetness of invisible rain drops in the air
I see...nothing
blackness
utterly consumes me
fear starts to chew at my mind
my eyes strain for something
anything to focus on
but there is only emptiness
slowly the sound of the breaking waves abates
the wind dies and my hair settles
the taste of salt leaves my mouth
I smell nothing
just blackness fills my nose and mouth
a thick suffocating nonexistence
I gasp
my lungs burn I need air
I'm not getting enough
my knees bend and I slam into hard gravel
my arms cover my ears
trying to block out the sound of emptiness
I feel pain
but from what I don't know
trickles of blood start to run down my face and my arms
I scream
my mind gone wild with terror
something is out there
watching me
waiting
it wants to destroy me
the gravel bites into my knees
I slam my fist into the hard and torturing rock
my knuckles breaking open
blood spills onto black earth
mixing together in painful swirls
I scream again
no!
I will not submit to the terror that grips me
I raise my fist in defiance
and stagger to my feet
I sense eyes on me
millions of eyes
flickering with blood lust
my defiance is immediately subdued
and again I slam into the unyielding blackness
my spirit vanquished
I lie bleeding
a small cry escapes my lips
tears mix with grime and blood
the eyes are closer now
still staring
still waiting
still flickering with blood lust
they can smell it on me
they can smell my fear
my defeat
slowly I slip into a grateful stupor
my mind overrun with terror accepts the blackness
I feel it leaking out of me
blackness trickles out of my eyes
nose
and mouth
along with blood
and water
but as I start to fade
something tickles the back of my mind
a question
a challenge
a whisper
Why is it that you worship Me so easily when things are going well?
Apart from Me you can do nothing
but with Me you can do anything
Call on me and you shall be rescued
get up
and embrace your faith
get up!
GET UP!
I jerk back from my subconsciousness
before the pain can get to me
I rise
pain flares through my body
I can't do it on my own
but through Him I can do anything
terror rips through me
I gasp
choking
I can't do it
I am going to die
no!
I believe!
I need You!
I BELIEVE!
I stand there gasping
but nothing happens
doubt begins to work at my mind
have You abandoned me?
No
I will not give up on my faith
no matter what happens
I stare into the darkness
my mind threatens to succumb
but I beat back the terror and doubt and pain
I search
for the promised light
slowly
I notice a pin point of light in the distance
hovering on the horizon
I stretch out my fingers towards it
but I cannot reach it
I reach with all my strength with all my power
the millions of eyes mock
they torture and laugh
I cry out with hopelessness
why have You teased me with this bit of hope?
Trust Me
I can't
I will fall
and my body dashed amongst the rocks
Trust Me
I can't!
Trust Me
I cry out in desperation
tears leaking from my eyes
I look towards the small light
it is still there
unwavering
Trust Me
with a wrenching sob I leap off of my cliff
I'm falling into blackness
I hear cackling
I sense defeat
and then I'm falling into light
a blinding hot searing light
I scream as all doubt is burned from my mind
I'm floating amongst points of light
Whenever you need Me I am there
Call on Me and I shall rescue
Trust Me
I trust You
I believe with all my heart
my eyes flutter open
was it all a figment of my imagination?
My eyes glance around
the weeping willow leans over me
I hear a bluebird singing
a soft breeze ruffles my hair
the sun's golden rays play with the water
casting reflections on my face
I look at my legs and arms
all tracks of pain erased
I brush my face with my fingertips
no injuries
did it really happen or was it just a dream?
Then quietly a whisper
drifts on the breeze
Trust Me
and I knew that it had truly happened
whether in my mind or in life
it didn't matter
I knew He would be with me forever
so under the weeping willow
beside the quiet pool
reflecting the sun's rays
I gave up a little prayer
of thanksgiving to the One who protects
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