I Cannot Go On

I cannot go on
tears streaming down my cheeks
pictures of fragile memories
turning to dust before my eyes
my hands
once kept warm by your own hands
are now frozen in despair
I'm alone
and I'm scared
my tortured heart begs to be healed
but where are you?
Wisps of dust
twist to form your perfect face
I reach out
only for the dust to settle into a memory
bluebirds once chirping in blissful ignorance
fall silent at the setting of the sun
I'm alone
and I'm scared
where are you?
Dusky black envelopes the light
shadows creeping from the corners
to flit across my tear stained cheeks
shivers run up and down my arms
I'm cold
the blankets we once shared
now holds a lonely one
memories threaten to consume my mind
causing the tears to flow once again
where are you?
Why did you have to leave?
I cannot go on
you were my light
my warmth
my happiness
and now you are gone
leaving me in the dark
cold and depressed
your face haunts my thoughts
drifting into a restless sleep
I find you in my dreams as well
you said you had to leave
if you truly had to leave
why can't you take your ghost with you as well?
Why can't you let me live my life?
You left and you said you would never be coming back
Yet you haunt me still
I cannot go on like this
amongst the fragile memories
that haunt my inner being
causing this heartbreak you cannot see
tears streaming down my face
to drip onto the blankets
we once shared
I cannot go on
without you