A Tide of Pain

How can I explain how I feel?
This aching pain inside me
that threatens to overpower

.
The pain is a tide
pulling me under
I try to drown
but somehow I cannot

.
I'm on the verge of dying
but never truly there
the sharp needle
scraping across my skin
is only momentary pleasure

.
The pain I feel on the outside
with the beat of my heart
cannot hide the unseeing pain on the inside
blood trickles down my arm
mixing with my falling tears

.
I've tried so hard to refuse
what I am becoming
but all in vain

.
The pain is a tide
pulling me under
I try to drown
but somehow I cannot

.
I succumb to the needle again
but now there are no tears
only blood
slowly a sigh drifts from my parted lips
the fight is leaving me

.
I don't want to resist anymore
my heart is losing
the end is near
I become nothing
drifting on a tide of pain