Perfect Yet Spawning Evil

Eyes blue as the ocean
lips as red as a rose
face as white as snow
what people see is nothing less than perfection
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I'm unblemished
perfect in every way
I walk with a confidence that others envy
my smile showing my self assurance
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Wouldn't you be surprised
if you were able to strip away the makeup
and see me for who I truly am?
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On the outside I look like the person everyone wants to look like
my eyes glint with acceptance
and yet
if you looked closer
you would see a small undercurrent of fear
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A current of anguish
slowly growing behind a wall of self confidence
pride and acceptance
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Flipping my hair with a slender hand
perfectly manicured nails
I hide my fear deep down
in the depth of my soul where no one can see it
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Living life to the fullest
laughing and loving
seemingly without a care or a worry
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Yet deep down I know I am not perfect
deep down I would give anything
for just one person to know me for who I truly am
to know my evil secrets
my darkest fears
my inner mind
and yet
I know I cannot
for then what would people think of me?
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I hide it all
beneath a mask of perfection
perfect eyes
perfect smile
perfect body
and yet
deep down I am as ugly as you could ever imagine
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Deep
deep
deep
deep
deep
deep
deep
down
where the evil abounds and spawns a wicked brood
where my heart shrivels into itself
lies black as night reside
and promises never kept wither and die
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This is my true self
but show myself I cannot
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Yet don't you see?
If I show my true self to the world
I would be shunned
my friends lost
my dreams and hopes shattered
I cannot
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How I wish I could become that pig-nosed girl
I so often ignored
for though she may be ugly
she shined with an inner light of peace
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No one knows who I am
and no one ever shall
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Unless a miracle happens I shall stay the way I am
perfect on the outside
and evil on the inside
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Eyes blue as the ocean
lips as red as a rose
face as white as snow
what people see is nothing less than perfection
if only they could strip the mask away!
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